Charmainesayshello

2010-01-16T04:07:00.000-08:00

(You know who you are.)

Rotted at home the whole day. Did homework ofcos. Now, I'm still rotting. Going off soon, nth much to blog also. Oh yeah, I'm back in contact with Cherrie and KitYee! YAY! :B Love and miss them ttm la. Hahah. Kay, nth to post alr. Byee.

2010-01-15T05:41:00.000-08:00

12 Jan 10, 13 Jan 10, 14 Jan 10

(Posted the picts randomly.)
Went to school as usual and I forgot what happen. :X Sorry okay, but I will post picts. Paiseh paiseh. Pictures on top anw. :]

I'm just gna say, whatever. We have a choice to make and we have to make it quick before everything falls out. I hate them, they hate me. You like me, you cannot pangseh them. I like my them, I cannot pangseh you then you feel awkward with them. What to do? Fxck life! Primary school this happened and now in secondary school? Those people really have something wrong aye? I admit I have attitude prob, I admit I get upset very easily, but what can I do? I've got that stupid emotional prob right?! It's not like I want to be like this also. Can't Deenisha and clique just leave me alone? Can't you tell them this? I really hate it like this, I really do. I don't wna loose them, nor you. Anw, it's up to you.

15 Jan 10
Went to school like any other days. Today after school rushed to Mac to buy ice-cream? Lol. Want become pict alr, almost everydya go Mac. Hahah. :X Then after that, went back to school. AndriennSweetheart, Ezatti, CelesteBabyass, YingTong and Mizuki went for their trail and pangseh-ed me. :[ I stand for like 45 minutes?! D< Leg also tired uh. They came to find me after the trail then went for band. Blah blah. Went home after band lo, still got what.
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To JoeleneBabylesbian;
Babylesbian, thanks for being the one there for me when I need a ahoulder to lean on. You let me know whats best for me and whats not. When your sad, I'm willing to lend you my shoulder too. Hope you had fun during the catholic camp. Love you ttm! :D

To WeiQi;
Honeybee! :x Don't deesiao you lar. Thank you for being the one there for me when I need you and being someone who really cares. I diao-ed you the whole day when I see you it's because I can't face you. I know I did the wrong thing so yeah, sorry. Anw, cheer ups and good lucks for your exams. Love you truck loads. :]

To Nicole;
Darl, thank you for giving me advice do I'ld know more about life. Being patient with me and listening to my 'story', you've been a great listening ear. I will keep those words that you told me in my heart so I won't repeat the same mistake again. Thank you very much alrights? Lovezxc. :}

To Andrienn/ Celeste/ Ezzati;
Sweetheart/ Babyass/ Friend? :x Hee. Thank you for cheering me up and asking me how I am when I'm down. Although you'll always pangseh me, even without realising but thanks for caring, I appreciate it alot. Lovezxc! ^-^

2010-01-11T03:54:00.001-08:00

(Upload the rest another day.)
Father fetched me to school this morning. Had lesson's and stuff, then in the afternoon went for bowling trail and me, JoeleneBabyLesbian and AndriennSweetheart were chosen. But we're still wondering whether to choose that CCA or not. Waited for an hour till my dad came to fetch me. (T.T) Then when he reach, he fetch Andrienn home first, then we went home. :']

I'm tired of breaking down again and again. I'm tired of crying so hard that I suffocate. I'm tired of facing tough challenges up ahead in life all of a sudden. I'm tired of being the one that has these stupid illusions, nightmares and thoughts. I'm tired of having hearts breaks; mood swings. When will all these stop? When will I recover? I've been trying to keep that smile on my face. I've been trying to be optimistic. I've been trying to make everyone not worried. But deep down inside, I won't be able to take it anymore. It's so stress to face all this. I need a break. :'[

2010-01-09T03:22:00.000-08:00

Okay. Rotting at home now. Morning woke up with a nightmare. :'[ Saddie. When will all this stop?! :[ Currently texting Joelene and chatting on MSN with Webster. It's been 3 hours since I find a blogskin and till now, I still can't find one that I like. -,- Fxckup by everything. Very confused about what to do also. :/ Don't know what to blog alr. Now have to help Webster advertise.

Lip and ear piercing at $3 each.
To pierce, contact Webster at 92219353.
~~Partially~~ experienced but reliable, I think? :X Can one nar. :]

2010-01-08T06:26:00.000-08:00

I FEEL LIKE A LESBIAN! SHXT! :[

5 Jan 10

After school went to LJS with Mizuki and Andrienn. Heehee. Very nice lo, cause I hungry. :X After eating then bused home with Mizuki. (:

6 Jan 10

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMANDA! :D
First day of orientation. Hoho. Quite fun but also not very nice. Lol. Wake up, prepared then Dad drove me to school. Blah blah blah. Played bonding games, ice breaking, treasure hunt, had lunch and stuff? Shall not elaborate cause I'm lazy. :X

7 Jan 10
Almost same as day one so not gna say much but no picture cause we couldn't use our phones. Saddie. T.T

8 Jan 10

(This picture is like damn blur, sorry.)
Last day of orientation. ): Meet up with Celeste and Ezzati first. Before that, went to the toilet and saw Santho. Hah. Then etc, etc. Not gna continue cause unpleasant things happen in between. ): What a happy yet sad day? *Confused* :S

Lastly, before I go, I just wanna thank Joelene, WeiQi and Nicole! ♥

Boy, you don't stand a place in my heart anymore. If I were to live for you again and again, then I'm hopeless. Your just playing with my feelings. All that you use to tell me, are they true? I doubt. Your not worth my love from the start and the one who will regret is you, not me. I'm happy with who I am now and if your gna give up on yourself, it's your choice. Bye.

2010-01-04T01:35:00.000-08:00

First day of school today. Was okay as I made 5 new friends but I still hate it. Celeste, Andrienn, Cynthia, Natasha and (forget her name, again. :x). Like a normal school day, except we don't study but play games. And recess lasted for an hour. WOW! :D Recess didn't do much, walk around, texted Caroline, Dawson and Emmanuelle. :] We only have to reach at 8 for school for Friday. Hahah! :B Good good, can sleep. After school Dad and Mom went to fetch me and went to BK to eat. Hoho. Bought a new watch also. :] Currently blogging and texting with Emmanuelle. :] Might be away for awhile ler.. :[ Saddie. Post when I'm free, promise. :'] And will post the picts don't know when. :x Paiseh paiseh.

2009-12-31T09:51:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL! :D Currently chatting with 'him' and WeiLunDaddy and blogging. Hoho. A new year, might have a new start. Hope everything turns out right next year, so not looking forward to it. -,- Kay, it's late. Bye.

/Editted @ 10.15 pm
HAPPY NEW YEAR AGAIN! :D

Wake up> Prepare> Aunty's house> Alter uni> Lunch> Slacked> IMM> Dinner> Home.
Woke up early in the morning and Dad drove me and Grandma to Grandma's friend house to alter my uniform. After alter finish, grandma went home and I stayed there. Had lunch there and 'played' with XiaoJia. Till like 6++? Went to IMM had dinner. Ate MosBurger. *Yum* Went to daiso after eating. Then went home after that. Kay. Don't know what to post and decided to make it short cause I'm lazy. :X Lol. Bye.

2009-12-30T22:20:00.000-08:00

Back to post. :] Changed blogskin due to boredness. Should I MIA? Should I private my blog? Suggestions pls. I lost in the midst of making up my mind. :/ One thing, I LOVE MY TWIN!~ Second thing, XVESS ROCKS!~ Hahah. Boliao hor, me? :X Blahblah. Whatever. Oops, I forgot to post pictures. :O I promised my twin that I will post pictures, hee. Ps uh, twin. x|

2009-12-28T10:04:00.000-08:00

It's morning now. I can't get to sleep. Currently chatting with JolynPreciousZuiAi. Feeling very depressed now. My mind is inna blank. :[ Tmrw gng to some restaurant with family to eat cause my 'shu shu' is gng back to America alr.

Some how, in whatever I do, I just can't forget you. I know the harder I try to forget you, the more I can't cause it means I'm thinking of you. You've got my mind spinning again and again. Will you be my first and last love? I'm not really sure though. You told WeiLunDaddy that you were sad because I was posted to a girl's school and spammed LuoMingSon telling him how sad you were. Those days we chatted, I still can't figure out what were you thinking. Will that be the last time we chat? I hope not but I think so. You got posted into the same school as her, her chances are higher. :| WeiLunDaddy told me that I still got hope and he asked me not to give up saying that you would confess one day, but will you? I doubt. I understand you too well sometimes, I don't pay attention to your actions. I'm on the verge of breaking down. Worrying for you every minute, hoping you're fine. Even if I can't have you, I want somebody who loves you more then me and you love her too. And someone who is willing to take care of you and sacrifice whatever it takes to be with you. As long as you are happy, I am happy too. Good lucks, boy. But I'm still asking myself, is this the end?

2009-12-27T19:10:00.000-08:00

MY BOOKS ARE SCREWED UP! D< Gna go change it ALL later. Was gng crazy when I checked it ytd. --' I hate secondary school. :[ Everything seem's to be in a rush. Okay, post when I'm back. Gtg. Bye! :D Oh yeah, one last thing, I'm deciding whether to MIA or not, any suggestions? :|

/Editted @ 5.50 pm
Okay, I'm back home. Exchanged the book alr then went to Queensway to collect my specs, love it! :D Mom and Dad came back from M'sia ytd night and I have alot of chewing gum and bubble gum now. Hoohoo. ^-^ Me and JolynPreciousZuiAi are gna 'start'. Heh. It's a secret between me and her oh. *Shh* xD Kay la, I'll stop crapping. Bye. :]

2009-12-26T20:55:00.000-08:00

26 Dec 09
Went out with Aunty Betty, Celine, Olivia, Crystal, Chloe, Jasmin, Julian and Joycelyn and Aunty Emily. :] Hoho. Was fun lar, but not posting pic because I'm lazy. :X We went to eat at Marche first then headed to Wildwildwet. Swam for quite long bah. Then after swimming, showered and left for tiong. Meet Justin there for dinner then went home after that. Lazy to elaborate, just a short post of what happen.

2009-12-24T08:08:00.000-08:00

HOHOHO!

Charmaine wishes all a very
MERRY CHRISTMAS! :D
& A very happy birthday to JolynRetardedSanba! :D (L)

/ Editted @ 8.24 pm
Hello once again! :D Currently at Uncle's house having a Christmas party. Real bored so decided to blog. Pictures willbe posted up when I get home. :] This Christmas actually sucks to me. Why like this? Affected because of..? :[ Sadded. -Skip- Okay, around 2 my father came to fetch me and my sist. Went to Uncle's house at Bukit Panjang after that. When reach, ate abit bit first. Lol. Saw CarolJie! :D Heehee. After eat comp-ed then went to BPP to collect the cake and I bought don't know what. :X Went back to the house and slacked after that. Continue reading and I bet you will laugh your lungs out. HAHAH! I pour out everything from my bag and realised I couldn't find my wallet, me and CarolJie panicked abit, we checked the fridge and if my wallet is in the plastic bag of the cake and couldn't find it. Then, we tried recalling. We thought of leaving my wallet at the McDonalds ice-cream stand but it's not. I went to check my bag again and there, it's inside. -,-! LOL! Stupid rights? After we found my wallet, we comp-ed, again. Then my Uncle called me and CarolJie to go buy ice pack. Sien~Party started when everybody came then when it end, I went home lo. Blahblahblah.

2009-12-22T23:43:00.000-08:00

Hello, peepo's. ^^ Decided to blog today. Hoho. Went to the sec school today, and I wasn't excited at all. -,- Got the first choice, but I'm not happy then what's the point? Blame it on my parents. -Skip- After the teacher crapped, went to buy books and te school uni. Queued like fugging long? Urgh. After that, went to QueensWay to buy my school shoes. And and guess what?! I saw FarhanaSteadstead while walking around! :D YAY! She so chio eh's. Hahah. It brightened my day. After that, went to a shop, bought kappa school shoes. 2 pairs, $80. $.$ WOW! Bought a jacket at converse and loved it yeah. LOL! My leg is having blisters of all the walking.. :[ After buying, sent mom off to work then went home. Now using the comp lo. Blogged out of boredom. Kay, bye, I've done crapping. :]

/ Editted @ 6.30 pm
To: Someone unexpected.
Sometimes I wonder why I am the last to know things about you. I wanna trust you, but can I? Yeah, I'm starting to think 'so' of you too. But can I not? It's all freaking me out. We fought, yeah, over fxcking small matters. But we end up betta each time. To this extend, I don't think I exist in your heart anymore. I tried, always waiting for you to talk to me first. But I wait and wait and wait, even till I go offline, still nth. I don't wna loose you but I don't know what your thinking. Maybe we don't understand each other, not now nor from the start. We never tried to understand each other and we vnever want to. I hope I'm not the one in your blog post, I really hope so. Even if I'm not as important as the rest, but I hope I stand a place in your heart. My apologies. :[

To: You!
I don't know what reaction you'll have after seeing this. I don't know what will happen next too. I want a chance, but can I have it? I asked about even when we're apart. Worrying about you even when you've had another. I miss the days when we say "Goodnight, byebye, love you, sweet dreams and muacks" before going to bed. I miss the days when we cared for each other with no boundaries and I had the courage to love. Issit all too late? Will miracles happen? All this while I've been keeping it all to myself. Not all wounds heal, not all scars show. Is tear's the only present you could give me? I'm waiting although I know it will hurt if I fail, but I've never gave up on before. Not before nor now.. *tears*

2009-12-20T01:25:00.000-08:00

Gna focus on watching my shows more now. :B MIA till I feel like blogging. Sorry okay. :X Reply tags till the next time I blog so ppl, tag more! :) Not gna reply tags this time. Psps. :[ Anw's pplwho tagged, thanks. Ask me to link, linked also. :] Will hit back when I'm free. Bye~ And lastly,

I LOVE WANGZI!

2009-12-16T00:14:00.000-08:00

My parent's sxcks, they fxcking sxcks okay! Do I look so young they have to t'care me till liddat. Knn. Everything I do is fxcking wrong. Then the thing your do is right la? Cb. I got so pai meh? I doubt lo. Go out also must ask, also not always go out. -,- Always nag nag nag, got use meh? I also don't listen, then nag for what. Their mouth not tired, my ear tired one eh. Skip. Currently rotting at home, so not nice. Might be going out with Bev and co. tmrw. :D Still haven't got an ans from Beverly. I wonder where is she. Not online, no replies? D: Where is she? Damn worried okays. D: Haeysh.. Hope she's fine, god bless her.

2009-12-15T05:22:00.000-08:00

Urgh! My nails are ruined! D: Shouldn't have golfed if I Knew it would spoil it. The gems all came off alright. -'- I'm gna put on those blue/ red extensions this thursday. Yay! I j'adore them! (: Still fighting with my mom so I don't have to go to some country to celebrate christmas. Sxckkeh. :P :/ Forgeddit. Went to Chinatown to meet Gran's after golfing. And bought a PSP. Accompanied Gran's to interview for her new job and waited for 1 hour! D< But after her interview I get to eat cabonara. :D Went to Orchard after that. Bought a new phone also. ^-^ (L)! :D After shoppping, went home lo. Now online, going to shower soon. Kkay. Bye.

2009-12-13T23:50:00.000-08:00

Sorry for not posting ytd. Lazy to. Went out with family to dinner ytd night. Ate buffet. Blah blah blah. :P
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WangZi!

Nick Name: 王子 Wang Zi
Also known as: Prince
Real name: 邱勝翊 Qiu Sheng Yi
Profession: Actor and singer
Birthdate: 1989-Apr-14 [20]
Birthplace: Taiwan
Height: 173cm
Weight: 53kg
Star sign: Aries
Blood type: O
Related Group: Lollipop!
Shows he acted in: The Legend of Brown Sugar Chivalries as LingHuCong,
They Kiss Again as AhNuo &
Brown Sugar Macchiato as WangZi

Omg! WangZi so cute! (L)(L)(L)! Crapped with MichelleXingan about him just now. Talked about bbt and hei she hui also. Crazy about WangZi alr, so damn in love with him okay. Hahah. :X Heh. Kkay, nth to post le, bye. :X

2009-12-12T19:59:00.000-08:00

Abandoned!
Today, rotting at home. But but going for a buffet dinner at night. Currently feeling very very vexed. Talking to XiaoHintDear and Beverly at the same time. Haeysh. Blog at night. Not in the mood to blog now. :[

2009-12-12T00:29:00.000-08:00

11th Dec

Meet up> Petrol station> Holland v.> Pasir ris> Escape> Play> Mc cafe> Lunch> Wild wild wet> Change> Play> Shower> Mc cafe> Dinner> Home.
Lunch; Cake? :X
Dinner; Crab.

Jadie and her Dad came to fetch me and then we went to pump petrol first. Headed for Holland V. for don't know what. Then went to Pasir Ris. Bought swimming costumes then the tickets for escape first. Me and Jadie played pirate ship, wet and wild, kite flyer, roller coaster thingy, ferris wheel and went to the haunted house. At the haunted house I scared like siao okay. I like chicken. T.T And and the pirate ship can kill, took twice. The first time me and Jadie 2 ppl sit on the highest point of the ship and when it moved, it felt like I was gonna fall down man. *heart attack* But the second time was better, we sat at the middle then behind us was a row of boys. We never scream then they scream like siao lo. LOL! -Skip- Went to Mc cafe for lunch after playing. Comped and editted Jadie and her dad's pict till 3.45? Then went into wild wild wet to swim. :D Swam for 2 hours plus liddat then showered. Shower alr go eat dinner. Ate crab, fish, 'vemicille'? 0.o And some other things for dinner. The crab very de nice okay. Hahah. After dinner, went home, then watch teevee and went to slp. Having back aches eh. Paindieme. :'( Nvrm.. D:

12th Dec
Went to the cemetry thingy today to pray my grandfather. Then went to my grandma's house to eat after that. Fetch Jadie alr then go to my house, now using comp. Shall not elaborate anymore. Going out now. Reply tags ~~later~~. :)
/Editted at 11.28 p.m
Went to Novena with Jadie just now. Ate "yummi yogurt" and stuff. Don't wna crap anymore.

Cries: Tagged:D can enter le
Reply: Hahah. Thanks. :D

x3Shan™: TAG.
Reply: Thanks. Don't need to keep tagging though.

Khloe says: Charmaine! ^^ Follow me on twiiter tooz! I LOVE YOU MANZXC! (:
Reply: Khloe! Alrights. Iloveyoutoo.

leewemn: babybxtch ! Tagged , loveyouttm !
Reply: Babybxtch! Thanks, loveyouttmtoo.

ChenHui: Hi & tag. ;) anws, update soon uh. : D
Reply: Hello. Yep, updated. :D

x3Shan™: TAGTAGTAG :D
Reply: Thanks.

Fongyin(: heyy PrettyAiren! TAG!;D
Reply: Hello pretty airen. Thanks. :)

Priscilla says: TWIN! Have fun. ;)
Reply: Okays. I will. :>

Khloe says: BabyPopcorn! Love die youuuzxc! ^^
Reply: Babypopcorn. Loveyoutoo. :>

VANESSA: Jie ! :) So long nvr tag you blog liao. And, nw you more and more CHIOO liao ! So, hit me bck k. :D
Reply: Oh, okay.

Spammer -> x3Shan™: TAGTAGTAG :D
Reply: Thanks.

JIAYI: tagged ! :)) tag my blog , thanks ?
Reply: Okay. Will do.

Priscilla says: TWIN, TAGTAGTAG. ILOVEYOU, cheerup manz! Dont think too much le la. ): Love.
Reply: TWINNY! :) Loveyoutoo. Will de. Okay, I try.. (L)

TAXISTAND: HEY! I've just created this blogshop, & right now, we've GEO lens at superb cheap price fr th coming
Reply: Alrights. :>

♥ BabyEn,: Luvv die eu . XD
♥ BabyEn,: Heheh , okay . :BB
Reply: Hahah. Love die you too.

ChenHui: Hihi. : ) Thank for linking me up uh. Haha. Anws, you're pretty. I mean it : > it's a compliment.
Reply: Hello. :) Hahah. Nope, not pretty at all. I know but I'm not. ;)

Daddy: testing o,o
Daddy: Hello? o,o
Daddy XD: Hello?
Reply: Who are you? -,-

Shermaine: hahaha ! How can you copy meee ! hmm , but i think sugarlovezxc sounds nicer :xxx
Reply: Hahah. Yeah, me too. :X

NIGELL/plurker: TAG :) link me yeah?
Reply: Thanks and okay, will do.

2009-12-08T20:27:00.000-08:00

-,- bored! Currently at home rotting and planning a birthday party. :) Chatting with IzenSweetAffair, BabyEnEcstasyJie, PriscillaTwin and BabyAceDear. (L)! ^^ Me found out something, but don't wna doubt. That thing broke my heart. But it's definitely not about r/s. :) It's no longer a burden to me. Nvrm, skip skip.
BabyEn; Cheer up Ecstasy Jie. He's not worth. Not worth the tears, sorrows, heartbreaks, breakdowns, no.. He's just a jerk. (No offence). :x You can feel sad, but not too long okay. I promise to be there for you. He's not the last, tell yourself this. Live for yourself and not him. Cheer up darl. Lovezxc. :)

FARHANA:D: Awesomeee, I like your m'sia trip. You bought so many stuffs, didn't ask me along. :( Haha, kidding!
Reply: Hahah. Kkay. Not alot la, actually. Still okay. :)

FARHANA:D: Tc stead stead, me love you! <3
Reply: Steadstead, t'care too. Lovedieyou.

`Rachel: YO cupcakeee tagtags :D ;luvvvvv
Reply: YO! Thankyou. :D (L)

Shermaine: Hi sugarlovezxc ! Love you :D
Reply: Hello, sugarlovezxc. Loveyoutoo. :D

Priscilla says: TWIN! MIz you . Talk to me on msn when you see this.
Reply: TWIN! Miss you too. Kkay. We're talking. :x

Spammer -> x3Shan™: TAG YOU LIKE SPAM~~~
Reply: I don't. Anw, thanks.

Khloe says: omgomg, haha, BABY POPCORN! I tagged you so many times. o.o
Reply: Haah. Reply to my tag mah.

Fongyin(: Heyy! PrettyAiren! TAGTAG!<3
Reply: Hello, pretty airen! :D Thankyou. (L)

JIAYI: hey , tagged !
Reply: Hey. Thanks.

♥ [J]EAN !: Hellooo ! Tagged ! <3 Ai Ai! XD
Reply: Hahah. Hello. Thankyou. Loveyoutoo. xD

YULIN: hiii honeystar. :D tagged for u!! (:
Reply: Hello honeystar. Thanks for your tag. :)

2009-12-07T20:29:00.000-08:00

Kkay, I shall reply tags as I have nth to post. LOL! Oh yeah, made a new gan. Her name is Khloe and she is my BabyPopcorn! :D (L)

Faezah[: Tagged prettyhead ;D
Reply: Thanks sist. :D

Khloe says: ^^
Reply: ^^

Babyheart-s: Heys ~ where are ur credits ? -.-
Reply: Hey. Oh. I editted the skin. Basecodes are from Mich elle. :)

Khloe says: HAHA! ^^ KK, LINKED!
Reply: Alrights.

Khloe says: HAH! kk! SURE! ^^
Reply: ^^

Khloe says: HEH! ADDED LOVE YOU
Reply: Loveyoutoo.

Khloe says: BabyPopcorn! Featured! ^^
Reply: BabyPopcorn! :D Featured you too. ^^

2009-12-06T01:06:00.000-08:00

Hell-o! :D Back from M'sia alr. ^^ Hmm, kkay. Tell your what happen. :) No picts oh, I lazy post and and don't sound nice cause I forget alot alr. D: Paiseh paiseh.

Day 1; 041209
Wake up> Get ready> Fetch Jadie> Bukit Panjang> Breakfast> Pump patrol> Malaysia> Lunch> Hotel> Slack in room> See sist swim> Shower> Dinner> Hotel> Watch teevee> Chit chat> Sleep.
Woke up at 5.45 a.m to shower and I was damn tired la! T.T Slept for 3 hours only. -skip- Showered, prepare then went off to fetch Jadie. From Clementi, my father drove to Bukit Panjang and we had breakfast(: After breakfast, went to pump petrol for Dad's car then to Malaysia! :D Drive, drive, drive then had lunch at don't know where. :x Saw a lizard? 0.o Eew! Lunch was okay, edible. The stingray was the nicest! Love it! Hohoho. :x From there, we went to the hotel to check in. Put our things, then slack, slack, slack. Abit later, went to the pool to see Wayne, Emily, Moon-Cher and "Marker" swim. :x Hahahah. Me and Jadie played with them also and got ourselves wet. T.T Nvrm. Went back to our hotel to shower. I washed Jadie hair for her and she washed mine for me and we got ourselves wet again. :) After we wash our hair, I showered first then Jadie. Ate dinner, went back room chit chat then went to sleep lo.

Day 2; 051209
Woke up> Shower> Temple> Lunch> Shopping> Room to rest> Dinner> Room> Wash Up> Chit chat> Bed.
Woke up only at 11 a.m. Was late. :x Quickly showered then we went to some temple. I waited outside. Don't wna go in. :/ They prayed and we headed for lunch! Had chicken rice for lunch. The chicken rice horhor, damn cute de leyhs. Rolled into a ball de, the rice. Hahah. Not bad la, actually, chicken abit hard nia. :x After mum mum, went shopping! :D Nicenice, this one. Bought a "Mario" shirt, mini skirts, nail polish, etc. Spend quite alot there and burned my mom's pocket. :( Nvrm. After shopping, went back to the room to rest. Watched teevee also. Heehee. Had dinner after that. Also got stingray de, this dinner. I ate alot stingrays and some clam thing but it's damn small okay, got garlic somemore. Must slowly take out. T.T Dinnered, went back to hotel, wash up, chit chat then off to bed. :)

Day 3; 061209
Woke up> Watch teevee> Shower> Pack up> Check out> Lunch> Pump petrol> Home.
Kkay. Day 3, last day. Sien~ Woke up at 9 although had a late night, nvrm. Watch "Hot shot" while then went to shower. :) Quickly packed up then checked out. T.T Sadded. Had bak kut teh for lunch, lost my specs there, I think. :'( Saddieme!!! After lunch, Dad drive, drive, drive. Drove to a petrol station, Dad pump petrol and bought lotsa CHEWING GUM! ;D (L) Hahah. Pump le then drove home le. Jadie came to my house and only went home at night. :)

Priscilla says: Twin! Daily tag. Loveyou. Miz you ttm lehs :(
Reply: Twin! Kkay. Thankyou. Love and miss you ttm too. :(

Izen: Awwwwww Luvdieyou!! <3 Haha, you more chio luv<3 Thanks sweetaffair. Meluvdieyou! <33333
Reply: Sweetaffair! :D Hahah. You more chio la. ^^ Welcome. Melovedieyoutoo! (L)

Xiaovess: Relinkeed.
Reply: Thankyou jie!

JOLYN/LIM,: I'm siao v.siao *nods head* . LOL , Haihai ! (L) . BonVoyage yup . ;x Will miss you der :D
Reply: Hahah. Still dare say. Hello. (L) Kkay, thanks. Andand, you betta miss me lo. :x Hee.. No la.

leewemn: TAGGED , babybxtch ! lovedieyou ! ^^
Reply: Thankyou babybxtch, lovedieyou! :)

YULIN: HELLLOOOO! (: OK! LINKED U! hehe. tagged btw! :D
Reply: Hey. :) Kkay, thanks. Lol.

HUILIN: CrazyTwin ! Imyttm lah D:
Reply: CrazyTwin! Imyttm too.. D:

Priscilla says: Twinny, I miz you veryvery much. :( Come back sing soon! LUVYOU. Misses. :(:(:(
Reply: Twinny, same same. Me back le. :) Loveyoutoo.

JOLYN/LIM,: ME MISS YOUUU D: COME BACK SOON ~ (L) .
Reply: Aww.. I miss you too.. Yeah, I'm back. :) (L)

:)BagalahBOY!: YO , just passed by weixin's bloggy , so tagged . heeh
Reply: Hey. Kkay, thanks. LOL.

Khloe says: Passby. Nice blog. ^^
Reply: Kkay. Thanks. :)

Babyace's: DEAR! wb to s'pore. Meet up soon hor, luvs. :B
Reply: Dear! Thankyou. Yeah yeah, definitely. Lovezxc.

xiaosugar: Preciouszui ai ! <3
Reply: Precious ZuiAi! (L)

2009-12-03T00:54:00.000-08:00

Hohoho. Was crapping with JolynRetardedSanba then now crapping with BabyAceDeardear. (L) Ltr got to go pack for the trip tmrw le. D: Sien.. Will be back don't know when also but heng JadieMei gng with us. YAY! Me and her taking one room. ^^ Lalala~ Crapping. -_- Boredddddddd!
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This is Izen. :) She is my sweetaffair! :D A duachiobu! :D Melovedieher. ^^ 301109 will be rmbered foreva. :)
SweetAffair, evryth will be alright, don't worry. I'll accompany you *there* maybe next week or 2 weeks ltr de. :)

2009-12-01T05:04:00.000-08:00

Woke up> Get ready> Bused to Clementi> Drove to Some place> Waitted> Drove to Sentosa> Played> Drove to Vivo> Shopped> Home.
Woke up at 8.30. Damn tired okays, couldn't sleep at night. T.T Showered alr then bus down to Clementi to meet Jadie and her dad. Went to buy newspaper for her dad first, but then realise i had no coins. Shxt! So ask Jadie to get off the car and come find me, she got coins what, z! From there, her dad drove to forget where, did his things then drove us to Sentosa! :D Went to underwater world first. Use some 'wimi' or 'miwi' thing and walked around. That thing gave us intro about everything, damn cool canzxc. Then from there, walked around the whole place. The pictures will do part of the talking for this and the rest of the post. After underwater world, went to see some seal thing. Hahah. Live action. Around 30 minutes ltr, went to take the luge and the from some high high place sit down the thing. Whats that called uh? 0.o Urgh. Sua. :X Then played twice, from there went to buy the ticket for the sky tower and merlion. But before going on to the sky tower, ate New Zealand Ice-cream! :D Very yummy~ :P After going on the sky tower, went to te merlion. Inside very dark de lo. Abit like maze. Hee. After that, headed to the beach then playde wth the sand. Saw a coconut! LOL! Played till 6 pm liddat bah, then went to Vivo le. Jadie bought a pair of Charles and Keith sandles? Is that called sandles? 0.o Nvrm. Went to harbor front, walk walk then went home. Showered. Online. Now blogging. :)

♥: ♥♥
Reply: ShanWei! -.- Very fun hor.

Izen: Heyyozxc <3>
Reply: Hello sweetaffair! :D Thankyou. ♥♥♥

♥ BabyEn,: Ectasy ! I've relinked eu , :BB Luvvdieyouu , muack;x
Reply: Ecstasy! Thankyou. :B Lovedieyoutoo. Mwahs. Hahah.

Faezah[: Opps, sorry! :x forgot to give the url :x
Reply: Hahah. It's okay. :)

Cries: Hi my sist<3
Reply: Hello sist. ^^ Lovedieyoutoo. Okay. Me no sad la. :D Hahah. Me too. :X

Shermaine: hahaha , at least your not sad bout it :D thats good !
Reply: I am! Very depressed about it okay. D:

#aLfred: hey ... work harder next time ... TAGGED!!!
Reply: Hi. Okay will de! Thanyou. :)

VANESSA: relinked le. must meet up kay. ILYTTM ♥
Reply: Thankyou, okay. Loveyouttm too.

KeAi: taqqed for KEAI! will miss you loads!<#333 Reply: Thankyou keai! Miss you too! ♥♥♥

psby: hi chiobu. (:
Reply: Hi? 0.o And you are?

2009-11-30T00:27:00.000-08:00

Currently at home, rotting! D: Sadded. Nvrm, anw tmrw gng to sentosa with Jadie. :D Can't wait for the outting with CherminCottonCandy, VanessaLovePill & GraceDear! ^^ Yay! I bet I will have fun during the hols. :) Gng to M'sia on Friday, JadieMei will be there too. Hoohoo. Wa, I crap all the way eh. :X LOL. Bye, nth le. Tmrw then do the long long post. :)

YULIN: HELLOOOO plurk friend! (: link me up! :D
Reply: Hello. Your linked. :>

JOLYN/LIM,: Hai retardedsanba ! :D (L) , tagged .
Reply: Hello, retardedsanba! :D Thankyou. (L)

IRENE/: superlover! ♥ finally can view yr blog lers.
Reply: Superlover! ♥ Hahah. Yeah.

♥/- Babyace.: Muackzx, ily. Tkecre, meet soon :>
Reply: Okay. Ilytoo. T'care. Meet soon. Hahah. :X

Priscilla says: Twin, cant see what i tagged you, very xinku eh! :( But anyw, ILYTTM. HAHA, meet ya veryevry soon! :')
Reply: Twin. Hahah. Paiseh. :x Ilyttm too! Yep, meet yavery soon. ^^

SHERMAINE: HI SUGARLOVEZXC HAHAHAHHA !!!!!! HOWS PSLE ?
Reply: Hello, sugarlovezxc. PSLE? Okayokay bah.

x3Shan™: Tagged..
Reply: Thanks.

Faezah[: Hello sis! Tagged ;D Love. [:
Reply: Hey sist. Thankyou. Love.

FARHANA:D: hi steadstead, chiobu! :) hahaha, relinked you babe! one day, MUST go out together okie? <3 color="#ff0066">Reply: Hello steadstead. I not chio la, you then chio. :) Hahah. Thankyou, and yeah, definitely must. ^^ (L) My number? The 8393**** that one. I recieved your text alr actually. :) T'cares too.

♥/- Babyace.: Dearrrrrr, wed will not collect the shirt, msg me once you see this :)
Reply: Dear! Okay. You texted me alr. :X

`Rachel ♥: Cupcake i think she deleted th tagg u go see anw tagg ;luv
Reply: Okay. Seen. She hum, heck her. Love.

; kellychew: happypill! :D tagged. stay chio & happy okay! loveee.
Reply: Happypill! :D Thankyou. You must stay chio and happy also okay. (L)

Kada: ello ah bu =)
Reply: Hello, son. :)

Faezah[: Sis[!] Relink me kk D: Sorry for the inconvinient cause D:
Reply: Sist! Okay. Nvrm. But, whats your new url?

IRENE/: relinked. :D
Reply: Thankyou. :>

ahwEb: Hellos charmaine i think you know hu me ba ? tagged ya . link me up .
Reply: Hello. I know, ofcourse. Thankyou. Alrights, will do.

VANESSA: Hello jie, nice blgskin. Loveyoudiezxz too!
Reply: Hello, mei. Hahah. Tyty. :)

xiaovess: hey loved. I want take th quiz but cant
Reply: Okay. I give you in msn.

2009-11-27T23:00:00.000-08:00

Tagged by BabyAce to do.

Ten to go.
1. Are you single: Yeah.
2. Are you happy: No.
3. Are you bored: Duh.
4. Are you fair: Yeah.
5. Are you indian: Nah.
6. Are you stupid: Yeah.
7. Are you honest: Maybe.
8. Are you irish: Nope.
9. Are you nice: Yes if you are. :)
10. Are you asian: Yesh.

Ten facts.
Full name: Charmaine Poh Si Min (思敏).
Nickname: xSNOW! :D
Birthplace: Thomson Medical Centre.
Hair colour: Dark dark brown (not obvious).
Hair style: Slunt and layer.
Eye colour: Dark brown.
DOB: 09th March.
Mood: Sad.
Favourite colour: Black, white, purple, red.
One place you wish to visit: Japan.

Ten facts about your love.
1. Been in love: Maybe.
2. Believe love in first sight: Maybe.
3. Currently have a crush: Don't know.
4. Hurt emotionally before: Yeah.
5. Broken someone's heart: Maybe.
6. Have your heart broken: Yeah.
7. Like someone but kept in heart: I don't know.
8. Are you afraid of commitment: Huh? 0.o
9. Last person you hugged: Don't rmb.
10. Last person you said ILYs: PriscillalaTwinny.

This or that.
Love or lust: Love.
Cats or dogs: Dogs.
Best friends or regular friends: Best friends.
Creamy or crunchy: Crunchy.
Pencil or pen: Pen.
Wild night out or romantic in: Romantic in..
Money or happiness: Happiness!!
Night or day: Night.
IM or phone: Phone.

Have you ever.
Been caught sneaking out: Nope.
Seen a polar bear: Obvious? -.-
Done smth you regret: Yeah.. :(
Jumping: Like, duh.
Eat food that fell on the floor: Maybe.
Eat an entire Jaw breaker: No.
Been caught naked: NO!! -.- D<

Preference in love.
Smile or eyes: Smile.
Light or dark hair: Anything will do.
Hugs or kiss: Hugs.
Shorter or taller : Taller!
Intelligence or attraction : Attraction.
Violent or pathetic: None.
Older or younger: Older.
Sweet or bad: Sweet! :D

Have you.
Performed in a large crowd: Yeah.
Talk on the phone longer than an hour: Ofcourse.
A rock concert: Nah.
Cheerleading team: Nope.
Dance team: No no.
Drama play or production: Err.. Maybe.
Owned rich cars: Do I seem like I can afford 'em? -.-
In a rap video: No lah.

Last.
Last call you made: Mom.
Hugged: Don't rmb.
Hung out: Don't rmb.
Work: -
Talked to: FelineBabyloveeJie.
You IM'd: Don't know.
Texted: Jadie. ^^
Movie: Last afternoon.
Last person or thing you miss: I don't know.

Tag 10 people to do this quiz:
1. Priscilla
2. BabyEn
3. XiaoVess
4. XiaoSneeze
5. XiaoCries
6. XiaoYumi
7. Vanessa
8. Anyone
9. Anyone
10. Anyone
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To PriscillaTwin: Twin, I promise all this will end in a year. If I can't do it, two years maybe? :( Darl, don't worry alrights? You'll have my support, whether mentally or physically. I'll be the one there for you when you need a helping hand, a listening ear and a shoulder to lean on. Cheer ups, don't worry too much, will sot diao de. xP Hee.. Jkjk. You clear HsuiTorng, means one down, which is something good(: The rest, we'll do it tgt, with Cynthia and maybe XiaoVess? I believe she'll help(: You must take care of yourself in sec sch when I'm not around okay. God bless you. I'll pray for you that no one will dislike or tio you. You just go into the sec sch you want, don't care about them okays? If your happy, I'll be happy too, if your sad, I sad with you. You want chup, I chup with you. Want smoke, gang fight, etc, all I do with you. Willingly cause this is what sister's are for(: You not por. But a bxtch. Beautiful, Intelligent, Talented, Caring, Honest! ^^ I'll walk this path with you no matter how tough it is. But you musn't give up on yourself before I do. Which I will never(: Hang in there bah, all this will end de. Loveyou, twin(:

Feline piglet baby: Hey girl , taggs , all the ways ehh , and cheer up !(:
Reply: Hello. Thankyou. Okay(:

Cries: sister you good, nvr store my number ):
Reply: Paiseh la.. :( Will store in into my phone when I not so lazy. :x

Bev: hey hey baobei, cheerups alright? ^^
Reply: Hello hello. Okay(:

/VANESSA.: JIE ! ;D cheerups kayys? ^^
Reply: Mei! :D Okay, will de(:

`Rachel ♥: Cupcake cheer up :DTagtag ;luv
Reply: Cupcake. Okay will de(: Thankyou, luvv.

xSneeze: YOHYOH PIGUUUUUUU<33333
Reply: Yo, Piguuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu! ♥♥♥♥♥

2009-11-27T07:34:00.000-08:00

Woke up> Comp-ed> Showered> Grandma's> Lunch> JP> Movie> QueensWay> Shopped> Demsey> Ice-cream> Dinner> Home> Shower> Online.
Woke up at 11.30-11.45 and comp-ed awhile, secretly. :x Hoho. Dad came into the room asked me and sist to shower. After we showered, Dad drove us off to Grandma's. Had lunch there and grandma gave me a red packet. LOL. After lunch, Dad drove me and sist to JP. Met Sally outside GV. Heh. Bought popcorn and stuff then went in. Watched the movie "A Christmas Carol". :) Quite nice la. Finished the show at around 5+ liddat. From there, went to QueensWay. Took Sally's jeans to alter. And I bought FBT. Hee.. :X After we shopped till 7.30? Yeah, around there. Then went to Demsey for dinner. Ate modern thai cuisine. Hahah. Mom, Dad, Godma, Uncle Adam all came to join us. They had live bands there. And when its 10 and onwards, the crowd is damn high. Saw 1-3 aunties standing up to dance. OMG.. :o Not embarrass de leh. Hahah. I drank beer. One is the lighter one. The other is the darker one. The darker one tasted nicer and very xiang. :x We left at 11.30 liddat. Mom and Dad fetched us home then they went out. I showered, online, now blogging. Hahah. End of my post. My typing abit ugly ehs. :x Hee.. Ps.

2009-11-25T07:32:00.000-08:00

Got my PSLE results alr. Gosh. Totally NOT satisfied with it. Cried like hell okay. Almost more than an hour. :O Haeysh.. :( Currently talking to Jadie and ShanWei. Plurking and blogging at the same time. Boreding also. Hahah. Next thursday going to Malaysia with family, Jadie and co. YAY! :D Can't wait. LOL. My mom force me to go to a girls school which i totally DON'T want. Sien diao. Cried because of it. -.- Life sucks. Hope things will be betta at sec sch.. :)
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To BabyEn: I know your angry with me that I always leave you aside. I'm sorry. But, I just feel that you don't treat me as your closest anymore. We're drifting apart. And I don't know why. After that matter ended, I tried talking to you alot of times, you just won't reply. Why will this happen? I don't wna loose you y'know. Haeysh.. It's up to you anw. I'm just sorry. (L)

For those in PTPS.
To Sherlene&Caroline: Hey darls. Though you guys and Jadie can't communicate, but I hope your'll forgive and forget yeah? Caroline, stop living in the past alrights? I know you don't like her, but, sometimes she not what you think. :) Sherlene, you this missy, must take good care of yourself okay. I'll miss the both of you much. Hope we can meet up sometimes. Love you guys ttm. ^^

To Jadie: GanMei! :D Jiejie lovedieyouzxc. We will meet up evryday alr next year. Hahah. During the hols, we'll go out tgt, but you must take good care of yourself okay. Forget what happen between you and Caroline bah. :) All this has ended. Just leave each other alone okay.

To WeiLun: Yo, Daddy. Will today be the last time we meet? Hoho. I don't know but I hope we can meet some other time yeahs. Your always the one that tells me to think positively, foreva giving me your support. Hope your satisfied with your marks okay. Daughter love you! ^^

To LuoMing, JunWei, Timothy, Jeff, Clarence, Nicholas: Hey guys. Thanks for being my entertainers yaw. Aku love your as friends. But LuoMing as son, Nicholas and Tim as di. Hahah. T'cares also. Hope your can go to your dream school. :)

To Renata&Elika: Yo girls. I'll miss you guys truck loads man. Be back soon okay. Hope to see you guys soon. T'cares. Hope you'll have fun during the hols. Oh yeah, thanks to the both of you of for being there for me when Caroline and Sherlene aren't my friends and for understanding ho I feel. Truck loads of love okay. :)

To AmandaN&Huiling: Alien and mommy! :) Although you guys are on their side, but you're still my friends rights. Thank you okay. All this we've been through and you guys still are my friends, caring for me. T'cares okay. (L)

To Amanda: Maybe we're not destined to be friends. Nvrm, anw, I've let it all down. That 2 years, of sistership, I cherished it all. Today, when you talked to me, i ttyl don't know how to tell you how mch I got. I don't trust you anymore it seems. :/ Goodlucks anw. Bye.

To Agnes, Alissa, Grace, Kyer: I don't know what you guys want, neither do I want to know. Just leave me alone. You've got what you want. Don't like me, be it, just go away. -.- Bye.

(L), Charmaine.

2009-11-24T01:15:00.000-08:00

All I wanted was a boy to love me whole heartedly. Why issit so hard then? It's all a nightmare. All so scary, and it all hurts. It's a journey to tough, and I have to go through all the pain myself. It hurts, but I'm left with nth. You're all I ever wanted but your her's. Just give me a break and leave me alone.. Go away. 你分明是在玩我, 但你为什么要这么做? :'( 我想放手!!! I don't wna suffer under your clutches anymore. Just let me go. I'll break down from all of this. Boy, if you don't love me, let me go.., I don't really don't wna suffer anymore.. From the time we started, till now, we've ended. You've got another, while I'm on my own. All I can say is goodluck for tmrw. All the best. You didn't do your maths properly, so, it's up to you. Goodluck.. I love you.

23 Nov 09
Went to JP to buy tidbits for the hols. Gosh, I'm gna become fat during the hols. :O :( Must control le. Buy buy buy. After buying, went home, online. Aiya, crap la. *Lazy type* :x

24 Nov 09
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!
Woke up> Showered> Drive to Clementi to fetch Grandma and maid> Lunch> Fetch then home> Went home> Online> Ate dinner> Online> Bed.
Woke up, Dad told me to shower cause he wanted to bring me and sis for lunch. Asked if my grandma and maid could go, he said yes, so afterwe showered and get ready, dad drove to Clementi to fetch them. From there, we headed to a restaurant at Outram to have dimsum. :) Ate for like an hour plus. Then after eating, fetched them home as they came back from a trip from Malaysia last night and had to rest. Went home after that, then online. Ahma came back, so ate first. After having dinner, online again. LOL! :x Mom played mahjong, finish playing alr, asked me if I could lend her my comp, I said okay. And when I shut down and brought it outside, she was using my Dad's. -.- (-'-) Sua. So, I went to the room and watched teevee. Slept only around 3-4 pm.

25 Nov 09
Woke up at around 12.50-1 pm liddat. Hoho. Woke up alr, then online, ate lunch. Now blogging. Sien like hell okay. Everyday stay at home. 16 more days to Timothy's birthday. :) Counting down with him. :D

2009-11-19T22:05:00.000-08:00

知道惹你生气的我想对你说一声对不起
Talking to you kills me, but when I don't talk to you, I miss you. I don't even know what I want. I'm confused. All I know is, I love you but I have to let go no matter how hard I try, how much tears have fell and how deep I love you. I'm left with no choice. Your attached, clinging on will only make me more hurt. :'( I drown myself in those bitter thoughts and memories, but what else can I do? Must crying become part of my daily routine? I don't want it to, but how can I stop and change it? I try to spread my wings and fly, but they just break half way letting me fall and hurt myself once more. How can I let this feeling go away? I've never love anyone so much before. She's happy, what about me? I'm just a weak, lonely and confused soul. Loving that one guy foolishly. Slashing is stupid, I know, but it can numb me. I can't tolerate the pain anymore. I can feel my heart bleeding, blood gushing out of it, it just won't stop. The wound is starting to have an infection and I am suffocating under your clutches. This love is killing me, it's over.. I can only blame myself for not cherishing you. You treated me like a rag doll.. When I treated you like gold, treasure. My mind is in a blank. So many ppl are out there cheering me up, and for you, only you, I am like this. It's torturing, very torturing. I all alone in this dark and cold forest. Trying to find someone to save me, hoping it is you, waiting everyday for you to come yet to no avail. It's hopeless for me. I have nothing left. Neither can I request for anything! I've got enough of suffering. Life's too tough for me.

Hihi! :D Rotting at home now. Bored to tears okay. :'( Sadded. Chatting with BabyAceDear on MSN now, plurking, and blogging. Rot at home for two days alr oh. Might be going to m'sia with parents, sis, mom's friend, etc during December. Told her I don't wna go, but don't know how yet. Sien. I don't want go la. :/ Don't know what to post!! Fxck life. Parents confiscated my phone. Now, I am only allowed to use the comp till my mom comes back. T.T Urgh! Fine, bye, srsly don't know what to post. Oh yeah oh yeah, one more thing. I HEARTZXC BABYACE; DEAR TTM!

2009-11-18T01:40:00.000-08:00

17th Nov 09

Woke up> Check hp> Showered> Dressed up> Eat lunch> Did hair> Cabbed to school> Had Graduation Ceremony> Left for home> Changed> Cabbed to Vivo with Jadie> Ate dinner> Went to the movies> Home.
Woke up at 11.30, then checked my phone. Realise that Dawson spammed me 11 msges and 6 calls. Like wtf okay. He keeps persuading me to go to Graduation Day, and so, I went. -.- Showered first then ate. When the time was closer, my mom made my hair straight and accompanied me to go take cab. Cabbed to schl then had some ceremony. Took some cert thing, and was like damn embarassing! -.- When the thing ended, me and Jadie cabbed back to my house. I changed, Jadie lent a sweater from me then agn, we cabbed to Vivo. When we reach, we meeted up with her father. Went to buy the tickets for 2012 first, then left for the restaurant her father was working in, went there to eat. Her father cooked some fish+beef+mussels+chicken+prawn platter. Then got one jiejie working there damn prettaye can. :O Hahah. We spent an hour eating. Finished eating at 7 then left for the cinema's. Left too early, so went to walk walk first. ^^ When the time was reaching, me and Jadie bought popcorn and a drink, we share~ Heh. The advertistments started at 7.40, and the show started at 8. Wasted 20 mins on advertistments? Waste of time. We watched the show as I talk to Dawson, through Timothy. Laughs. We chatted awhile then I started being a little unreasonable. :x Skip. The show only ended at around 10.30 pm. When I reached home, around 11.30-12. And I was alone alr when Jadie and her dad left. Lol. Reached home, texted Jadie, showered. Then head to bed but only slept at 3 am. T.T Insomnia.

18th Nov 09
Wento school today. Only slept for 3 hours okay. -'- So, today quite moody. Talked to the principal since 8 am. -.- And we talked for 2 hours. In her office, we spoke about our feelings. The both of us cried. She and I hugged, we shook hands and I was like "omg!". Lol. Skip la, kay? :x Then in the afternoon, me, LuoMing, JiaAi, Timothy and Nicholas went to see Mr Chin's b'day cake. It cost's $57.60. Tried to get money. So.., called Dawson in the end. :x He gave us $20. :O And, he say d'need return eh. Make me feel damn guilty. D: We cabbed to his house then he give us the money de. Heh. Paiseh till I go hide, lol. I d'think I can see him anymore. He didn't come to school today and ytd was his last day. I regretted for not having a good look at him just now when we went there. :'( Sua, I'm sure we got chance to meet up de. :) After taking the money, we went to WCP check for cakes. The cost is higher then the one at Clementi. T.T So, we cabbed back to Clementi and ran all the way to the cake shop. Brought the cake. And bought it back to school. On the way back to school, saw CindyAiren on the bus. Lol! :D She very pretty de wor. Heart so good somemore. Hah. After settling down, I went home. Showered, online. Cheryl came to my house to play. Around 7+ liddat, she went home. Then blogging now. :)

2009-11-16T07:21:00.000-08:00

Woke up> Showered> Changed> Quickly bused down to school> Did somthing> Left for central> Went to buy Slurpee> Walked to bus interchange and wait for Twinny> Went to CityVibe when met her> Walked around> Ate lunch> Walked around> Home.
Lunch; Sumo house (Mixed Fried Set)

Woke and saw the text msg Tim and LuoMing sent me. Straight away sit up on my bed, took the phone and called my mom to check if I could go back to school. Showered, changed and dressed up in 45 minutes. Not enough time also.. T.T After that, bused down to Clementi. From there, I quickly walked to school. Passed the thumb drive and BC to the clark then went off. She gave me attitude okay. -.- Say that she won't make announcement just because of this. Wtfxck. Important right?! -'- Nvrm. Pass the thing to her le, then walked to central. Guess what? I saw the principal on the way there. She didn't catch me though. :D Lucky. I walked towards there, and then near the bank outside, saw Cassandra. Didn't say hi, treated as I don't know her and walked away. She stared at me, and walked away with her friend too. My heart ached okay. :'( Then went to 7-11 and bought Slurpee. Too full so the thing spilled and my hands were like sweet?! -.- So damn unlucky!! Nvrm, then I called twinny after recieving her msg! v(^w^)v She wanted to meet up. I went to the bus interchange to wait for her then, with a blister on my leg. *ouch*! D: I waited around 20-30 minutes for her okay. So long. T.T When we met up, we walked to CityVibe then decided to eat at SumoHouse! I ate some mixed fried thing. Eew, fattening. :x Twinny ate the chicken teriyaki set. Very nice okay. Heh. Actually hai hao la. :P From there, we walked to bus stop. Saw Novi on the way. -.- She asked me to go home. Like wtfxck. I heck. Then reach the bus stop alr. We chat, saw her agn. -.- D'care la. Wlao. My bus came, I boarded. Twinny waited with me, so she went home ltr. Thankyou twin! <3

Made two new gans today! :D
- WeiXin; Girlfee
- XiaoYumi; Wifeyyy
Hahah. They both chio bu's. Akulovethemttm. :D Girl's, last long with your stead ohs. :)

2009-11-15T08:41:00.000-08:00

15th Nov 09

I still can't do it. But why? Why letting go became so hard. Crying from daydreams?? Isn't that ridiculous? But why am I still doing it? Whats wrong with me? I know I can't stand the blow. Then why must I do this to myself? I'm so sick of crying. Nothing seems to be right. Your the light of my life, the pillar of my strength, when I'm falling, they will be assure that I won't fall on the ground, just like a pillow that will carry me but all this is what it use to be. It will never happen again. Your flew away, to a far far away land where I can never ever find you. Your not mine. Not like you used to. Reading through those msg's we chatted in msn, the flash backs start again. Everytime I remember the past, I feel so pain inside. It's killing me inside though I'm smiling. You are the source of my life, and you left just like this? I didn't know. I didn't know you bear to. You've changed. I miss the old you. The one that encourages me all the way, supports me in whatever I do, and many more. I miss those days. I hoped we could last, but it doesn't seem so. We broke up just like this. It's been 3-4 months, and do you know that I'm suffocating each and everyday trying to get a little oxygen? And you are that oxygen tank, till I realise it, it was too late..

Today rotted at home. Watched 'Annie' and 'Flower Drum Song'. These two shows are damn damn damn old de okay. But very nice. Heh. I'm crapping. :x Talk otp with Jadie after mom and dad went to buy things. Me alone at home. So I called Jadie. We talk, talk, talk. Talk dao her phone no money. Cannot text her le. T.T And and, Caroline used me?! Unbelievable rights. I can't believe she lied okay. We're friends eh. Gosh. Nvrm. Shall settle this first then the 'big big' prob. After chatting with her, called Timothy, he said talk on MSN. Oh, btw, he's back from Japan! :D And then, Sherlene called me. We talked. Caroline was added into the conversation. We aked her why she lied, and she said the truth thinking I don't like Jadie. -.- Wth. And then we chat, chat chat till 7+? And then I went up to godma's house to eat dinner. ABC soup with rice. HAHAH! Plain but damn nice de okay. Me and Jadie going to watch 2012 on Tuesday! :) Fetch her after Graduation Day thing then we heading to Vivo. Heh. Done crapping, bye.
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BabyEn; Ecstasy, Jie, thank you for being the one take cares of me and wants the best for me. Never did I expect to know you. But I never regretted. Now treating you as my real, will you leave like him? I don't really know. But I hope you won't. You walked with me through the toughest times and gave me countless encouragements. I don't know how to repay you. But I think it takes a life time. Lol. Jie, melovedieyou okay. Tyvm. (worship) :)

Feline; Babylovee, Jie, thankyou for giving me those advice. I know, I know it takes time to find my Mr. Right. :) Maybe, it's really time to let go bah. Who he love, it's non of my concern anymore rights? I'm just confused with what he wants. I can only say all the best to him. Oh yeah, you last long with Jonathan yeah. Spend that last few weeks with him, cherish them. Cause when he goes for National Service, it would be hard to see him alr. Lovezxc yeah. :)

Kimiko; Jie; thankyou for being my pillar of strength. Helping me pick those pieces up. I don't know how to repay you either. Same as BabyEn, I treat you like my real sist. You entangled those knots for me, cleared the cobwebs away. All this probs seem to become nothing. Tyvm, for helping me. Last long with Ebenezer, and woaiaiaiaiaisini! :B

Priscilla; Twinny; sotsot twin. Thankyou too. Help me so much le. You lifted that heavy rock off my shoulder and made me feel lighter. Lent me your ear each time I am troubled. And always tries to cheer me up with no fail. Me miss you alot eh. Meet up soon okay. :) Ainioh!

Sherlene&Jadie; Mei, you two are cherished. The both of you might not like each other very much, but remember, I love you always. Miss you much okays. Won't be going back to school anymore. Must takecare in school uh. Don't let those ppl bully you. I know you can do it on your own. :)

2009-11-14T07:05:00.000-08:00

Today, went to Novena at night to fetch mom from work. Rot at home the whole day. Suxx like hell okay. Still tolerating that bxtch. -'- her. And, Caroline told me Jadie bacstabbed me. Never wna know what issit about, but I know alr. Now damn sienzxc. Twinny and Jiejie off9, Ecstasy comp spoil. T.T

2009-11-09T20:23:00.000-08:00

7th Nov 09

Woke up> Showered and prepare> Left house> Fetch Mom to work> Headed to Thomsan Plaza> Walk walk> Wento Swenses> Waited for evrybody to come> Celebrated Wayne and Nicolette's b'day> Played games, etc> Party ended> Went to Aunty Linda's house> Played> Dinner> Home> Shower> Online> Erika, Bridgette came> Played> Slept> Woke up> Played> They went home.
Was woken up by my Dad early in the morning to shower and then leave the house. I was tred like shxt. But still, I showered and went out. After fetching Mom to work, headed to Thomsan Plaza. Played retarded games at the party but was quite fun. At night don't know what happen to me, I didn't care about Erika at all. Omgawd.. Ah, heck.

8th Nov 09
Wento Aunty Linda's house again to take WII this time, in the afternoon. Went for dinner then bought groceries. Went home. Godma came down to eat cockles. Watched teevee then went to sleep.

9th Nov 09
>*Lazy to post pic's
Woke up> Online> Showered> Cabbed to Bugis> Lunch> Shopped at ILUMA> Wento Bugis (dk what's the name of the mall)> Dinner> Home.
Pon-ed schl and went out with Godma and Godsis. Bought a toga and mini skirt for graduation day. Texted EmmanuelleMama almost through out the whole trip. And FelineJiejie too. She is steading Jonathan now. Gratsss to her! :D EmmanuelleMama and FelineJiejie found their happiness. What about me? My happiness ~~will~~never return. Haeysh.. I don't know. He went to Genting. Could not sleep well this few days. Having nightmares almost every night. Waking up finding myself crying? It's scary. I just miss the whole lot him. I wish him were by my side. And, waiting for CassandraDardar's text and reply is another reason. Its the only way I could get info of how they're doing. I am exhausted, so exhausted. I miss him, I miss CassandraDardar, EmmanuelleMama, FelineJiejie, BrendenXiaoboyf, PriscillaTwinny, Daws de Mommy and many more. I am going crazy! I hope he'll come back to me. WeiLunDaddy told me that their not tgt, but I doubt. Urgh! What is the truth? I wna know.. )':

Finished my post. Damn long one. Hahah. But will anyone read? 0.o Ah, heck care. Today pon schl agn. Day two he's not around. Haunted by that painful feeling and I'm going crazy. Don't know what to write. Rotting at home now. Lol. Goodbye :)

2009-11-06T01:13:00.000-08:00

爱你虽然是一个错误的选择,但我没有后悔过.
Theres one phrase where I can never hear even if it is the lonliest night. When I turn around, all I can see is your back. All I felt was that your love is no longer around. And its never coming back. Can we go back to the place where we use to hold hands walking down that street when lamp posts are our spot lights on a Christmas night? I know, I know its impossible. The past can never replay. Can we go back to the past? After I froze those memories and tears from falling, I'll fast forward to the present. Wait, Charmaine, Charmaine, what are you doing He's gone with the wind, and can never return, stop dreaming.. We both know the reason why we broke. You know we're both hurt and still smile and tell me to move on. You didn't give me a chance to bid farewell. Neither a chance to love again.. We had countless memories, but all was forgotten by you in a night. I always sit by the beach, listening to the sound of waves, thinking about you but as I realise, I started to cry. I suddenly hate flashbacks. But everything about you makes me smile foolishly to myself.

Schl was bored today. FuhuaSec came to give a talk. The project is done but have to re-do. Wtf manzxc. Scared no time. Sien.. Haeysh, so vexed by everything. Life just sucks the way it is. Dknow what to post. But, can't wait for the outing with CherminCottonCandy, GraceDeardear and VanessaLovepill? Hoho. I want Christmas to come, quick. Hope I can spend this year's Christmas with him. But can I? Hope so.. D:

2009-11-04T23:49:00.000-08:00

4th Nov 09
>*Deleted the pics, they look fugly*
Wento schl> take anthem and pledge> Queued up and waited for bus> Bus came> Bused to Hydroponic farm> See butterflies> Bought souvenier> Bused back schl> Comped in schl> Home.

5th Nov 09
Wento sch today. He didn't come. :( Nth much. Played at comp lab and did project at the same time. Hoho. Playful right? Imissdiehim le la! D: Heck! D: Tmrw don't feel like going to schl but must go. T.T Haeysh. Don't know what to post also.

2009-11-02T04:17:00.000-08:00

I might not get you back. All this seem's too different. I'm on the verge of breaking down. Why? Why must you do this? Seeing you getting in trouble, I'm still worried like before. Each and every minute of my life, nth can stop me from thinking about you. I might be smiling, but inside me, I'm dying. I'm facing it, with fear.. You know my feelings are soft. Then why do this? It's hard to see you leave when we're tgt all this while. I can't afford to lose you. No, I can't. Promises are all broken. Forever.. Is there even succha word? I don't think so anymore. I'm suffering so hard and it hurts. Just let me go.. I can't take it yknow? You know I can't, why not let me go? Unlock my heart, you've got her. Don't two-time anymore. You know I care, then why get into trouble knowing tht I will know abt it? I don't dare to talk to you, it's a fact. I always wait for your sms's, always waiting for you to approach me. She claimed how much she love's you, yet she knows nth abt you. What does she want? What do you want even? I just request for a little love, nth more. I might look stronger thn her even when I'm alone, but no one needs you more then me. I fought those losing battles. Without you, nth goes smoothly in my life. I only wisg for one thing, that is to celebrate this years christmas with you.. Allow me to, will you? Grant me this wish, it will be my last one to you. My wishes have never come true, maybe for a few. But they weren't what I really wanted. I'm waiting for you to come back to me. And this time, I promise I won't let go. I just want that chance, one more is enough.. Pls..

Today, during recess met Cass. She came back to schl as her mom came down to talk to the teacher. Hoho. She so cute leh's. I whacked her though. She intro-ed her mom to me. :o I was damn paiseh lo. She said I was his ex. Then I was like wtf?! -.- Lol. She say I pretty, but then abit too tall. :( Sadded ay? But I ask Cass what was the first impression abt me to her mom. Thn her mom said tht I was a little too rough but overall, okay. :D Glad to hear tht uh. -Skip- After schl, stay back with Timothy, Jadie and Luoming. We did the music video thing. We played eh. Not do work lo. Hoho. Heck. Then find, find, find, find until his picture. Woots! I reacted like szb. Heh. He damn cute lo. Aiyoyo. Unresistable. :P Lazy posts alr la. Tmrw or.. Don't know when then post la. Sien~

2009-11-01T01:41:00.000-07:00

It's impossible that I can forget you. Even if I take a thousand years. Iloveyou, it's a fact. I won't have to care if those don't like it or what. Letting go is one thing, I know I can't do it. Others might find it easy. But I don't. You let me feel safe. I am reliant on you. And can this eva change? I doubt.. I'm breaking down. Let me know the truth, won't you?

31st Oct 09
HAPPY HALLOWEEN! :D
Fetch Godma> Headed to Novena> Ate dinner> Went home> Out ang to West Mall> Watch a 3D midnight movie> Home.
During the movie was scared to hell canzxc. :x I know I very chicken la, but, nvm. Heh. I heck. Meaningful la, the story, honestly. (: Check it out if you have time.

1st Oct 09
Wake up> Watch teevee> Eat> Shower> Out to Vivo> Shopped> Home.
Went to Vivo early in the morning till 5p.m just now. Sien like hell lo. Fxck lehs, saw the bag I like and it costed S$70. T.T Don't care alr, gonna make my holiday time-table full. Who want go out with me? If no one, then I go out myself lo. :'( Haeysh.. Everything just sxcks. Nth to post alr la, byebye.

2009-10-29T06:24:00.000-07:00

It's the same old thing. Day three and your never gna talk to me agn. How many times must you make me fall? Exactly how many times? I can't take it anymore. Agn and agn I've been taking blows. Sometime it hurts so much that I break down. Your killing me! D': Everything you do made me feel that I still have hope. What do you want from me? Can you just tell me? I won't be thin skinned this time, I bhb abit. I can sense that you still love me, but why stead her? You'ld rather hurt me then her? Oh, wait, I know, you don't wna hurt anyone. You apologised to me, time and agn. Everytime, I would tell you not to say sorry and tell you the same old sentence: "It's not your fault, it's mine. I did not cherish what I had, and now, I loose everything". You would thn reply, telling me that it's your fault, but why? When you approached me on MSN two days ago, I felt so happy. Happy till I can't stop shivering. Why so? Yet I'm gng out there, telling those ppl that your non of my concern. I need you. Alot. This blog skin, you helped me find it, and I used it just that I editted. I found a skin I like, why still use yours? I've given up I thought. But no, I haven't. I can't bring myself to. When will you return? I'm struggling for a breathe to take in everyday. Suffocated by love. I'm lost, confused, hurt. It's enough.. )':

Wento schl today. Was extremely bored. Hate it manzxc. Had one anda half hours of growing years, three session of talk from schls and, teacher talking cocks. There is Amazing Race tmrw, so will be going to schl. Will bring my own entertainment there tmrw. Schl is too suckkeh okay. Might be going to lot1 with JinWen on Saturday. Yay! I missed her can. Hahah. :D Miss YY too.. :( I miss tuition!!! Lollol. Gna slp early today. Heng ytd night never have insomnia, if not die liao. Hahah. Byebye, don't know what to post, today post real boring eh.. Tag me oh, I want lotsa tags~

2009-10-28T02:58:00.000-07:00

Why must you talk to me? You make me feel the pain. My eyes felt a heavy burning sensation and I was shy and anxious. You alr have her, why must you do this? Why?! )': It will only bring me more pain. How can I let go like this? You know I love you, but why won't you let me unlove you? If you do this, you'll only let me think that there's still hope. Yeah, I wanna leave, but does it concern you? You said yes. But why? You'll let me get the wrong idea. Why do I have to txt you or pm you before I leave? If you and her are gna break, they're gna come find me. I don't want this to happen. You want me to suffer aye? Why are you so evil? Go away! Pls.. I can't take anymore blows. Each time I have to be hurt, I tell myself not to cryand stay calm. Trying to take it as it have never happened. Anything about me, it's non of your concern anymore. You shouldn't even talk to me in the first place. You made me rmb the past. The feeling isn't nice, if you have never experienced it before. Only if I experience it, then you'll be contented? I give up.. Loving you is hard, real hard. And if I forget you, I'll never wna love you agn. Boy, you let me down.. )':
*But I have never regret loving you..*

Today never pon schl. Guai hor? Hahah. Nola. Don't wna go on friday. Tmrw gng still, have to pass up something to Mrs Shun. Now talking to him on msn. He's so good, but why? He alr have her. Haeysh.. I don't know. We'll let nature take it's course aye? (:

2009-10-26T22:32:00.000-07:00

It's hard to see you with a girl I hate. Looking at the path we use to walk home tgt, I couldn't see you shadow anymore. This isn't the way I wanted things to be. But you left, forever, and will never return. When can I text you? Next year maybe? Or forever I won't be able to? I will miss you. I just can't stop thinking abt you. You are just llike something written into my mind using a permanant marker and I can never erase you away. When will you come back? Or you will never come back? I doubt. Those times we shared, I rmb each and every lil bit of it. Those lil tiffs brought us closer. Forever doesn't mean anything, this word is just crap. Promises ARE meant to be broken. Love is murder. And the muderer would always be the one you love. I hope we can be friends atleast, but I don't think you'll ever accept me as a friend. I bet you want me to disappear from your life forever. I will do so, with no regrets. I won't let you know how I feel nor will I pour out my feelings to you. I'll just take a look at your back, smile and cry at the same time and just simply walk away telling myself tht tmrw will be a betta day, things will get betta and move a step towards life. Iloveyou, and loving someone is seeing tht person happy, eventually, you'll feel happy too. Ppl say tht this is puppy love, but issit? To me, it isn't. This feeling is way too deep. It's now over. And I'll have to face it. Tell me you love her, face to face and I promise I'll not pester you anymore. I just wna know cos loving someone is not an offence. I wanto start my life afresh, and I believe I will and I can. It depends on me. Whether I have the determination or not.I shouldn't carry on like this. Peeking at you whenever I can. I should just turn around and walk away. You HAD hurt me, its a fact, no one can change fact. Time can't rewind, neither can you do anything now. Go on leading your life, don't need to give a damn to me anymore. I juat want you to be happy. I hate to see you frown. The smile on your face is the cutest thing on Earth, boy, keep that smile on your face and stay optimistic. Stop saying you wna die or wht, she'll feel hurt, so will I. Goodlucks to you on your life journey, stop playing cos its way tougher in sec schl. She'ld better look into your eyes and know she's lucky for having you. You might be crying for a girl tht you want, but wht you don't know is tht inside me lies a much greater pain for not having you. Maybe we're just not mature enough to handle relationship matters. But I believe as we grow older, our thinking will become mature and we will be better at settling this typpa matter's. Now, all I can do for you is to step outta your lfie. I'm contented alr, if I see you happy. Never feel upset, no more okays? Promise me. You won't be able to see this, but I know tht your heart can feel it. Your a nice person, but in my heart, I still miss the old you. Erasing you away from my mind is a tough job, but time heals all wounds. Boy, goodluck to me.

Didn't go to schl agn today. Pon for 2 days alr. I keep thinking these 2 days. I'm tired, my heart is tired. I'm seriously breaking down. Facing challenges everyday. Can't just those ppl leave me alone? Why must they stir up trouble? I hate them manzxc. But even so, I'll still have to lead my life rightzxc. Gam-pa-dei to me ^^! (L) BabyEn Feline Jadie Kimiko Priscilla!

2009-10-25T20:14:00.000-07:00

25 Oct 09

Left house> Cabbed to Orchard Liat Towers> Ate at Sakae> Shop at Wheel lock> Wento marks and spencer> Shopped> Headed to Ion> Shopped> Wento Taka> Shopped> Headed to Wisma> Dinner> Home.

Wento Orchard with mom, godma, sis, godsis. Damn tiring, but just can't slp although it is 1+. Chatted with Cass through out the whole night, she damn good lah. Lovedieher, tht long gao kia, hahah! :D Realise tht I don't have friends in schl :'( Why did all this happen? That GraceW took away my everything, hate her manzxc :( Bitter comes aft sweet it seems. Ppl say sweet comes aft bitter, a load of crap. Life sux, sch sux. The truely painful goodbyes are the ones tht are nv said and nv heard. He didn't bid farewell, and it hurt me the most. Why the fxcking hell must he do this to me? Everything's gone, I hate nth left :'(
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God, you know wht's gna happen. I've nth left. Maybe just you and Cass, You will be listening my prayers more often nowa days. Ty for giving me all I have. I'll cherish it and not take it for granted like I use to. I wasn't a good girl. But its too late to say anything now. I should hv realised tht I was wrong in the past. You gave me chances, I know, but I just threw it away. You are a great father, one tht gives everyone your support and listening ear. Tyvm.

Cass, ty for being the one by my side. Giving me the support and being my pillar of strength. Always deesiao-ing me just to try to make me happy. I know, I know you can sense tht I still care abt him, but even so, I can nv have him back. Really, tyvm. If it wasn't for you, I'ld be alone. If it wasn't for you, I'lda get bully and will give up on myself. You let me believe in myself, be my listening ear when I need someone to talk to. And cheer me up when I'm down. I'll nv forget you, no, and never. Once agn, tyvm.

Priscilla, ty too. Twinny, ty for being by my side. Chatting with me when I have no one to talk to. Being my life wire, making me laugh and foreva the one tht cares for me. Knowing you is an honour. If I nv knew you, I doubt I'll have anyone to talk to, no one to cheer me up or give me advice. Your carved into my heart, brain and soul, I will never forget you. Ilovedieyou, twinny, tyvm.

2009-10-23T04:03:00.000-07:00

I remembered the days when the two of us held hands and walked down the road. Those days when we gave each other our greatest support in evrything we do. And those lil things we did that made our life become a love story. It all ended, and it will never play agn. Now, no matter how much tears I shed, no matter how long I wait, you will never return. I told myself, I told myself to stay strong and not fall, but as I try, I realise that I fall agn. Each time I try to stand, I will always fall agn. I can nv succeed. I lost this battle, and I can never stand up agn. You meant evryth to me, but as your shadow drifts away, I found out tht your no longer mine. I'll try my best to stop the tears from falling, standing strong each time I face a new challenge, hoping everything would turn out fine. But it doesn't seem so.. I always drown myself in those memories. Waking up from day dreams finding myself tearing. It hurts to know the truth, and I'm tired of facing it. I need you, but you need her. I have to give up, I have to. But why? Why as each time I try, I fail? Why do I always fail to not think about you? Why do I love you so much? I have so many why's, so many things to tell you. I just can't get you outta my mind. You are like a tattoo, that I can't erase from my heart. I cry in pain when I know that your with her. I hate myself for not cherishing. I hate them for ruining my happiness. I hate you, for not teaching me how to let go. It's impossible that I will find another 'you'. Saying the word 'I've given up', agn and agn, but am I lying to myself? Yes, I am. Why am I like this? I wasn't like this. We use to be enemies, why can't we just remain as enemies? I just hope time could rewind so I can be with you, I will have (A),(A)&(HL) with me. I loose everything within a night. I'm useless. I can't even fight for my own happiness, I run away from reality. Why do I always act big? So that I can protect myself from getting bullied. Until I met you, you protected me, like a knight with a shining armour. Till now, you left, I have no more armour to protect me. I have to go back being that coward lil girl, acting big but still getting bullied. I missed the days when I say: "Baby, nights, I love you, muackzxc." and you would reply the sweetest thing on Earth: "Dardar, nights, love you too, sweet dreams, muackzxc." To me, its the sweetest thing on Earth, but to the rest, I don't know. But I don't care. All I know is, I love you. I don't want you, I need you. You are the source of my life. But you chose to let go. I'm on my own now. With no pillar to hold me. I hope you'ld be mine agn, but I know I'm dreaming. I thank you for letting me experience so much, let me know whats life and many more. You're gone, I'm leaving too. Goodbye, my dear..

Wento United Square today. Ate steamboat for dinner. Was full like hell okays. Today, moodless. Life suxx. I'm tired :'(

2009-10-22T22:01:00.000-07:00

When all those other girl don't want you,
Trust me, I'll be the one by your side supporting you.

Hello! (: I've set my blog as private. Currently, only PriscillaTwinny can view it. Woah.. She must be honoured. Hahah. Today gna rot at home. Twinny's not on9 so i'm bored to tears. Actually wanted to have Swensens with sis, but I'm lazy to head out :x Hardly anyone's on9, all've got school. Zzz. Argh. And now, Idk whto post T.T Nvm. I'll just end it here. Smiles. Toodles.